Summative Project Report

Overall, I genuinely enjoyed writing about my chosen topic. As mentioned in my proposal, fear is something that is very personal to me; understanding it has been an interesting journey. I wouldn't say that my practical work has been fantastic, I spent quite a bit of potentially useful time engaging in external art events (not necessarily negative, but has impacted my outcome). This being said, I am pleased with how my final images produced for the experiment turned out. I hung the first image (66x66cm) in an exhibition and got mainly positive feedback, it felt rewarding to produce something that had influence outside the confines of university. My process researching and making notes happened almost simultaneously to my writing, I think this may have let me down as I didn't pre-prepare. I also must make a note to stop ripping pages out of my sketchbook to work on as although it makes it easier to scan it, it makes a huge mess! The primary research I under-did, especially the responses to my paintings, were particularly eye opening. Often during crits my work gets missed or the feedback is sparse, this time it was so direct and personal it gave a new sense of why I create the things I do. It is particularly easy as a creative to fall into an abyss of self doubt and dislike everything you create, I’ve never felt before now that my work could mean something to someone other than myself. I think I can say with full confidence that despite my time management not quite being down to pat, I have exceeded the previous two years of work. COP has never been my strong point as I struggle with a very low attention span and writing makes me feel a little stupid. This being said, I enjoyed this topic considerably more, and I think it showed. This project has propelled me into generally  considering how and why people act the way they do, alongside learning new things about myself. This has got me considering how I want to spend my time after graduation and I believe I want to take the path of supporting people with disability, even if just by raising money for select charities through exhibitions and performance nights.